First off let me thank everyone for your beautiful words of love and encouragement. It is appreciated much more than you know. In fact its day one of my journal and I've already cried three times. I'm a baby I know but I was greatly touched by everyone and was even given some guidance by BFF Ruth by way of Oprah about looking beyond just diet and exercise and into myself which I took to heart. I could barely read the email as my eyes welled up with tears of gratitude and love. With her advice in mind I sense a few soul searching journal entries ahead. Sigh...
Today has been an insane start to my journey. I woke up late (even though I had adequate sleep) which always frustrates me because I swear I could sleep forever if I was allowed. When am I going to be one of those grownup's that just wakes up at a normal time?!? Urg. I had a very mandatory and very stressful meeting at my job today and rushed out of the house with the lunch I made last night (thank god) and a yogurt with fruit. Unable to get breakfast in before the meeting I had to wait until the first break of the 4 hour marathon meeting I was in. By 10:00 I was dying of hunger and had to pee like nobodies business. I'm increasing my H2O to help flush toxins and stay hydrated. That's great when you've got time to pee but not when you're stuck in a meeting. Our meeting leader...I'll just call him the Marquis de Sade...gave us just 5 minutes for our break! I can't even get out of the meeting room, to the bathroom and back in 5 minutes let alone grab my yogurt to eat! Warning here...if you are late back from breaks they make you sing in front of the entire staff. No thank you. So I chose...pee my pants in the meeting but get my yogurt or continue to starve and alleviate the pounding in my bladder. In the interest of not being labelled as the chick who whizzed in the TQM meeting I chose the latter. I was hungry yes...but at least I was dry.
So there we go with day one. I'm hoping to visit our friends Jon and Aimee at the Mackwood's later. They're in from Texas and I can't wait to see them. I'll be sure to have some healthy protein and veggies before I go and stay close to the bathroom. I'm sure their beautiful 3 year old Mia would let me borrow some pullups if I found myself in the same position as this morning but I think I'll just stay by the loo and retain some semblance of my dignity that was almost lost in the Alpha conference room of Comtek earlier in the day. See you all tomorrow!
Today has been an insane start to my journey. I woke up late (even though I had adequate sleep) which always frustrates me because I swear I could sleep forever if I was allowed. When am I going to be one of those grownup's that just wakes up at a normal time?!? Urg. I had a very mandatory and very stressful meeting at my job today and rushed out of the house with the lunch I made last night (thank god) and a yogurt with fruit. Unable to get breakfast in before the meeting I had to wait until the first break of the 4 hour marathon meeting I was in. By 10:00 I was dying of hunger and had to pee like nobodies business. I'm increasing my H2O to help flush toxins and stay hydrated. That's great when you've got time to pee but not when you're stuck in a meeting. Our meeting leader...I'll just call him the Marquis de Sade...gave us just 5 minutes for our break! I can't even get out of the meeting room, to the bathroom and back in 5 minutes let alone grab my yogurt to eat! Warning here...if you are late back from breaks they make you sing in front of the entire staff. No thank you. So I chose...pee my pants in the meeting but get my yogurt or continue to starve and alleviate the pounding in my bladder. In the interest of not being labelled as the chick who whizzed in the TQM meeting I chose the latter. I was hungry yes...but at least I was dry.
So there we go with day one. I'm hoping to visit our friends Jon and Aimee at the Mackwood's later. They're in from Texas and I can't wait to see them. I'll be sure to have some healthy protein and veggies before I go and stay close to the bathroom. I'm sure their beautiful 3 year old Mia would let me borrow some pullups if I found myself in the same position as this morning but I think I'll just stay by the loo and retain some semblance of my dignity that was almost lost in the Alpha conference room of Comtek earlier in the day. See you all tomorrow!
im very proud of you for starting this dieting journey. i love you and think that you are beautiful no matter what!!!! I really want you to be healthy and happy. Muah!!! i love you sister!!!!
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